the looking glass by ahsek novel

HE SEES ME as i see myself/as if there was no one else/he is my first/my best/and my last/there is beauty in being vulnerable/i prefer to be raw/with him/there is comfort in truth/let's be real/from youth to grown ups/we are still us/perfectly human/the unexpected type/without the hype/maybe evolved as insecurities dissolve/his eyes and smile matches mine/with a heart healed from time/bruised by someone else/again and again/luckily/there is something left/more specifically/never has he neglected me/shut me out or pushed me down/he accepts me/respects me/even with the scars/regardless of what anyone else said/thought or heard/i can speak for myself/is it a reputation/a glass half empty/or is it half full/what's that situation/no kinda participation/all the falsifications/damn/allowing me the chance/inside/finding his love/sharing all of me/with him completely/forever and ever/even when we're not together/he has a safe place and he makes space/for me/as if there was no one else/he sees me as i see myself/specifically/i was already me/finally/he can see me for his self

bad habits good intentions by ahsek novel

THIS TIME around/maybe i'll settle down/with feet planted/firmly on hollow ground/so many years/shedding ice cold tears/remembering fears/speak lord/my heart is in distress/such a big mess/test after test/what is it worth/life cycles turn cartwheels/the devil already/made me a deal/still/everything right here/is real/forgive me/this is how i feel/still/everything right here/is real

clarity by ahsek novel

NOTHING hurts anymore/no need for nova cain/all that i am/becomes something better/than before/things i couldn't remember/things i didn't regret/things that I'll never forget/everything means more than you/can imagine/back and forth/turning each curve/twisting every emotion/walking a straight line/so close/to the edge/not even a work in progress/mission completed/the definitions translated perfectly/word/hoping it's the forever/i always wanted it to be/understand me/word/the definitions translated perfectly/every part of me/is something better than before/finally free/ready

i can tell by ahsek novel

I CAN tell/you prefer silver than gold/something aged but not old/simple quiet time versus a crowded room/i can tell/you don't miss the spotlight and that nothing was/ever gone too soon/a broken heart mended/through you/and it was you/i can tell/you know how to walk away/and not out welcome your stay/as you were groomed to say/thank you/and return the favor/the pressure of your peers/don't magnify your fears/i can tell/you know how to trust/how to love/and when to say goodbye/even when you try/and start to cry/learning lessons for everyone else/yet/you stand for yourself/i can tell/when things aren't/ok/and you need to be away/just so things can be/ok/i can tell/you know the truth/i can tell/you know when it's about you/i can tell/you have a heart/i can tell/when you really meant to/i can tell/what you went through/i can tell/you really need to/i can tell/you know not to/i can tell/you remember why/i can tell/you know when it's not about you/i can tell/you still care/i can tell/you're not that way/i can tell/that's why they like you that way/i can tell/that's why the other ones hate you/and they say that/about you/i can tell/you're already getting better/i can tell/we'll be ok/i can tell/i can tell/can you

rope burn by ahsek novel

HANDS wrapped tight/bound by blind faith as words/of truth ignite trust/some may call this lust/however/all that matters is us/sweet and supple as a lotus/this amazing/blazing as hot as a rimshot/moth to a flame/double barrel gun/cocked and loaded/like someone stole it/oh yes/we all know who wrote it/still/with an even kill/all that matters is us/from collared necks to bare backs/nails scratch/between bite marks and cuffed wrists/see/these are not fists/there is alot more to this/a perfect bow/plucking violin strings/no phone rings/a conversation never interrupted/silent vows with a subsonic flow/let's take our version of love below/a haunting satisfaction resolved

blackberries by ahsek novel

BLACK is/the label they gave me/it is a mix/of heritage and native blood/black is more than a color/it is a positive/in a negative sky/not a curse/or a bad attitude/from midnight to café lattes/the skin of pride/from clean shaven scalps/short cuts/pressed edges/to long flowing kinky happy/nappy locs/to almond shaped and big bug/wide eyes/huge noses and full luscious lips/slim bodies to thick mams/we are love/that honey milk/sensual erotic almighty/goddesses for our worthy/well deserving kings/forever queens/pure royalty of this earth/we are beautiful/and internationally desirable/speaking ebonics to slang/with rich accents/that elaborate on zora neal hurston/langston hughes/alice walker/rita dove/tennessee williams/maya angolou/and tupac shakur/natural remedies from the front and back yard/at nana’s house/southern fried/with buttermilk biscuits/collard greens/and sweet potato pie/kool colors and lemonade flavors/aid every bebe kid/in the hood/very educated/even healthy/no heart disease/no diabetes/with moderation of ingestion/no over consumption of salty/fatty acids/save our baby girls/single mothers/married folk/and widows/caregivers/homemakers/corporate workers/business owners/city and state officials/all up in the government/it is swag/from the sway of hips/to a pep in step/we are innovators/of music/fashion/sports/and art/with so much potential/a culture siphoned/making strides to expand/on that foundation/our ancestors gave their lives for/god bless/we are alive/thank you

epic by ahsek novel

A SUTBLE HELLO becomes the climax/of a love episode/no secrets/building links upon truth/a sweet embrace becomes the catalyst/of a midnight summers' dream/erotic glances/second and third/fourth and fifth chances/never seemed enough/rivers running deep/so deep knees made weak/romance/imagine/we speak until we peak/guess you know why/i didn't make a peep/silence is golden/grasping at the moment of/a euphoric connection/coming fast and loud/steady coasting/riding high like a volcanic wave/approaching heaven allowing warmth to enter/front and center/guess you know why/i didn't make a peep/silence is golden/taking all of it in/pure bliss/sealed with a kiss