in the beginning

tongue kisses
laced
with eroticism 
eyes never did lie
we became tangled
like conversations chased
with please and maybeand then
smooth like melted caramel and chocolate 
hazelnut
something Krispy and sweet
butheavy like the hand that feeds
trying to decide what is it that
we really need
so seductive yet
silent like a cool breeze
we become contradictions
spaces and apostrophes
hyphenated and closed caption
imaginations
allow room for misconceptions
what we have 
this is clear 
with intention
and perfect interpretation

some...time by ahsek novel

it took some time
but
I came down
high off ego
and anticipation
elated
I found my smile again
my heart beats again
I always
remember him
but does the pieces
to this puzzle fit
does it make sense
to anyone else
I came down
floating on emotion
feeling brand new
recognizing beauty
in all things
I sing songs again
painting stilllife and abstract again
I began to taste again
my numbness dissolved
and I remembered
myself
I came down
standing tall and firm
speaking loud and clear
words spoken
like a true artist
word
I’m ready for you
I'm ready for whatever
and I believe again

it becomes easy

He remembered to call

Yet

I forgot to answer

Damn

I feel twisted

Tight and tangled like a barbed wire fence

Stable and sound

Not with any intent

To cut and scrape

But I do

Nothing but bags full

Of bandages and gauze so readily available

As if

I planned it all from the beginning

Something like that crazy bitch from Gone Girl

And so very different

So now what

I resume from the part where I paused

My life just because I can and I do

I move in and out of time

Blocking punches and curving emotional attachment

They say...it becomes easy

Running away

Staying is hard but leaving is not an option

It’s like I want to smoke a cigarette but I don’t smoke

I know it’s not healthy but what is

We guard ourselves from imaginary threats

And so blindly fall into pits of snakes

Now I’m rambling

But I’m always poetic

Maybe one day I’ll call back

And he’ll remember why he wanted me

We’ll act as if nothing ever happened between us

And that too will be okay and furthest from the truth

looking for love dot dot dot...

he says i'm looking for love

i said i'm not

i know that looking for love is like looking for a ticking time bomb

and 

once you finally find it

it can explode and hurt really bad or you could detonate it just in time and have an amazing expereience

so

as it relates to him

i found something that i wasn't looking for

and i'm unexpectedly happy for the moments

the phone calls and texts

the smiles and winks

side eyes and shit talking

the relativity and the retrospective

his brown eyes
his vanilla skin

his soft lips

and his perfect touch

his maturity and his humility

the ultimate connectivity

so

time travels fast and in a parallel world

we are supreme

we are husband and wife

still

i'm not looking for love

here

we're just us

and that's just enough

thank you!!!

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