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national poetry month 2019

book promo: caramel

perfect intentions by ahsek novel

who are they by ahsek novel

WHO ARE THEY/i can only speak for myself /yet/i will share my voice with you/simple is when/they hate you because/they are not you/they sneak and whisper/about you behind you/all because you were different and strong enough/to define you and remind them/of who and what you are/not by default but by experience/all the while knowing/you are not better than them/nor the same as them/not simply because of aesthetics/or mannerisms or egos or personality/which make each/and everyone of us/unique/but because even if we do/the same/we are different and so we continue/the invisible competition with them/because they want what we organically have/and so they hate/breeding hate/lacking love/and their jealousy and envy/fuels your passion and lust for life/and you know what really pisses them off/is that you continue to live/you continue to think/you continue to love/you continue to create/but most importantly/you continue to be you/the most simple/and most difficult thing/you can do is be you/never forget who supported you/never forgot/how they treated you/how they protected you/and loved you/even if they don't understand/you remember/you remember how it feels/to be alone/remember how it feels/to be cold and starving/that uncertainty/where were they/did they offer help/did they care/this is why/they are not deserving of you/they are not you/they are not the they you refer to/when you reference love or friendship/who are they to you/this world is so big/with many opinions/and we are very small/with limited time/and they do not control you/so am i speaking/for you/because you agree/or you wish that you were me/just like they do/either way/keep living/and remember you/because i'm still me!!!

caramel (interlude) by ahsek novel

I WALKED OUT/of my mothers womb/speaking poetry and/whispering curses/i drink hennessey/and watch sunsets/my skin is brown/and melts like peanut butter/in a 365 degree heated oven/my voice is soft and/my words cut through barbwire fences/my heart is caged and/is also strong like Isis/i roll dices each day/because i'm still taking a chance/with each breath that i take/tempted and full of lust/he suddenly became my everything/as i became his flame/i became twisted and knotted/fully becoming aware/that i was under/his spell

black leather kiss by ahsek novel

BLACK LEATHER/tight skin/raw hide/hand soft gripping thighs/eyes wide lips slit/whispers/ignite my inner bitch/fuck/i scream inside/as he taste my lies/tight skin/raw hide/hand soft grippng breast nipples hard pressed/against his chest/bodies saying yes/bound and blind folded/wondering who was it that molded such a man/here we are/together and grown as ever/wearing black leather and chains/without pain or any shame/dreams of submission/he grants me permission/still/here i am/screaming yes/as his tongue/goes deeper/inside my center/granting him/permission to enter

caramel (reprise) by ahsek novel

SHIFTING/i became/engaged in his web/tangled and spun/right round/as memories/birth new friends/and enemies remain dead/his tongue/is an enchanted sword/as he tastes/each fold of my skin/caramel/dripping sugary drops/of passion/until/i unfold in his arms/we become silent/tonight/we go/deeper and deeper/time slows/as heat enters/suddenly full/connected at the center/beaming/with morning gently approaching/again/forming tight

rosegold by ahsek novel

PRECIOUS metals/silver and gold/with roses and broken down stones/flower petals/crushed into stress/day after day/skin tone imperfections/the light and dark/of beauty/put on display/then shimmer and dissolve/like a haulted single breath/wasted time filters/through eyes as/a constant cycle of life and death/so shine bright/until there is nothing left/but dust and poems

caramel pt1 by ahsek novel

SOFT/creamy coated splendor/becoming hard and formed/cool like me/imagine sipping ice tea/on a summers day/sticky and sweet as a heated night/brown sugar and peanut butter flavored delights/licking lips and closing eyes/wanting that inner thigh surprise/melting and enjoying the high

replacement drug (amended) by ahsek novel

FLOATING OFF into/the purple lights/smoke/burning my eyes/as i become high/from your touch/floating off/into the purple lights/gathering my thoughts/to form words/a simple conversation/mixed phrases/blurs and slurs/that translate into/the story of us/how high are you/how high am i/wanting more and more/never to pass/not meant for heavy rotation/yet/i share with you/let’s inhale this moment/let’s blaze this moment/and spark one/for all the times/that we didn’t/couldn’t/and shouldn’t have/floating off into/the purple lights/the story of us/how high are you/how high am i/floating off into/the purple lights/let’s inhale this moment/let’s blaze this moment/and spark one/for all the times/that we didn’t/couldn’t/and shouldn’t have/we never pretended it to be love/until we both were sure that it was/we never wanted it to be fake/just for other peoples sake/sometimes it turned into a debate/and was always worth the wait/now/the situation has become complicated/underrated and over duplicated/the story of us/how high are you/how high am i/who was it that fell off/or that needed a crutch/and got burned by the touch/floating off into/the purple lights/but was it ever enough/it just being us/i still wonder/as our song continues/dubbed/looped/and repeats forever/how high are you/how high am i/the story of us

sweet love hangover by ahsek novel

IT WAS the first time/that i saw/your face/it was the second time/that i called/your name/maybe/it was the smell/of your kiss/or the touch/from your lips/intoxicating/mesmerizing/bright lights/high lights/that spark/with each peak/caramel covered moans/as fingers roam/like a stoned lovers smooth/whiskey blues/in a smoke filled room/zoom zoom/this is/a new school groove