sorry, you are not my competition by ahsek novel

SOFT/molded metal/twisted/into beautiful sculpted elegance/i managed to unbind myself/stripped and ripped/apart by pride/digging underneath the scars/i cried/and yes/i tried to become something normal/i yearned/so badly to blend in/that i faded into the crowded spaces/therefore/i too/was a sheep/apart of his flock/my wool/became his possession/and for that/i was at peace/for i was/his piece/his side/his front/and his back/i was just his/and deep down inside/i died a little/luckily/i resurrected myself/and became important/to myself/being my own priority/as if i was apart/of some sort of sorority/accordingly/my wool/still grows/thick/fluffy/and very much my own/quietly/realizing and accepting/the recent epiphany/and taking full responsibility/for me/i have evolved/never allowing/the hurt and anger/to overcome and stain my spirit/infesting the bitterness/this isn't about me/being used and abuse/or unwanted goods/too old or worn out/truth be told/my heart is preserved/and my love is reserved/for he who is much more deserving/i respect myself/and am left with no regrets/so/there is no competition/for i am/the top and bottom of my existence/the end